There are reasons why my attitude towards some things going on is not the greatest, but my dwelling on them is bringing me down. In turn, I do not feel like myself and have been finding myself not as grace giving and loving towards some people. In short, more things have become to bother me that normally would not. I DO NOT LIKE THIS FEELING!!!!
A bible study I help lead and a woman that leads with me really spoke to me. Instead of spouting off with my verbal processing frustrations, I need to be praying that God shows me how He sees the situations/people. I used to be a duck - whatever happened - it would just run off my back and I'd continue on without any effect. Now I feel like it is seeping into me and making me into a person that I DO NOT WANT TO BE.
There are approximately 40 days before I leave for the Peace Corps in Nepal. I had decided prior to this revelation for me that I would be doing the devotional "40 Days with Jesus". My mind needs to be dwelling more on things above rather than the pattern of this world. What is the first day's topic? Peace. :) I was designed to dwell in peace all day, every day. I am going to start dwelling in God's peace rather than the turmoil around me.
I should be way more excited about going to Nepal than I have been. Time for me to dwell in the excitement and adrenaline rush of my next adventure living abroad!