I have only seen a small handful of the volunteers at one time. I cannot imagine what I am going to feel like when we are all together. A few of us already cannot deal with being nearby tourists for very long. Today, we complete our travels. I'm not sure how I'll handle things when we get there. While watching the TV, I already learned that it's a good thing that I have found finding a disaster relief course nearby me difficult. My heart is too sensitive - not that it's a bad thing. I just need to be careful about what I see and how things around me are affecting it.
That reason is probably at the center of why prior to the earthquake, I was going through what PC likes to call a "low place". I need better safeguards around my heart so that it is still sensitive, just not affecting me as negatively. As you can probably tell, I'm all over the place. My mood is melancholy and more often I am needing alone time. I'm looking forward on our journey to sit back and listen to worship music. I'm going to curl up and let Jesus hold me because that is what I need right now.
When I do get back to the States, I'm going to need time and hugs!