One day I want to get married and have children. I am going to another country at some point in my life - just am not sure how that will end up looking. My life prior to PC was certainly not sustainable for those dreams! Of course, I was working crazy hours that people with families didn't do and working nights CAN be sustainable for others. For me, I have recognized it is not something I want to do long term. What does that mean for me? I have an idea and actually I have filled out an application for it, but don't plan on sending it until closer to the end of my service. Especially when a year from now I may be thinking differently.
In addition to contemplating how I can lead a more sustainable life, I have also been reading books that have prompted other thoughts. What does my head know that my heart doesn't? Is it possible for your heart to know something that your head has not yet? If so, what does you heart know that your head doesn't? What do I listen to that causes me to fear? I have not taken the time to really contemplate the answers to these questions yet, but plan to and intrigued to see what I come up with.
What are y'alls thoughts? IS it possible for your heart to know something that your head doesn't? Basically, these questions are floating around in my head and convicting me to be a better person this final year in my service before I go onto whatever my next phase of life will be. Ideas and semi plans are fine, but I am very familiar with the phrase "If you want to make God laugh, tell Him your plans". It's time for me to put some plans into action and have things fall where they will.
It has been hard especially when you're figuring out what is going on with yourself . Encouragement from friends like "S"A that acknowledge you've had it rough and reminding myself of my strength. Knowledge that you're not alone in your journey helps - I'm glad God uses people to remind us of that, aren't you? Now that I am getting out of the "funk" - I am looking more forward to my final year here and when I return.
Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year! May this next year bring many blessings!!!