First of all - friendships if your'e not intentional with them can unintentionally create expectations for the friendships in your life. I'm not sure if that is the way for everyone, but I've come to realize that if I'm not careful I can expect something out of friendships that may not be something that a particular person can give. Every person is unique and has different giftings and it's not fair for me to have the same expectations for everyone. (Not that I have been, but something I have come to be more mindful.)
For example, clearly I process things by talking through them whether that be through writing or verbally. Some days I'm better at this than others ie. I'm better at communicating I'm doing this at work, but need to be better about only talking with individuals who can/are willing to listen. I am growing though and am becoming more able to recognize when my venting/processing is too much. That being said, I am me and that is a huge part of me that doesn't necessarily need to be changed. It also doesn't mean that all the people in my life need to be able to hear venting/processing. Moderation is key and is something I am working on!
Now to talk about "The Last Word" and times in my life! My life journey so far has been interesting. There are probably many people who expect a different life story than mine with where I am now. 13 years ago, I certainly know I had different thoughts in how my life would go! Different doesn't mean wrong, it just means something you hadn't thought about. I have things that I feel are still to come that I thought would have already happened. I believe they will, but clearly hadn't happened in my timing!
I have things that I believe have been placed inside me that haven't happened yet. The service today was about Joseph and how he had been given dreams that didn't make sense to those he told. It took over 10 years where Joseph went through a lot of not fun things like prison, but he still had faith in God even in the midst of them. One phrase that really struck me is this "The dream is still alive as long as you are, because the dream is not in the pit - the dream is in you".
It does not matter my life's journey the last 13 years or so. It doesn't matter what I expect my next 13 years to look like. What matters is that I am faithful and trust in Him as I continue in this journey called life until the time that His last word for me comes to pass. I cannot guarantee how frequently I'll post, but I'll certainly try to continue to share my journey!